Well, we went trick or treating. My husband stayed behind with the 2 other men & ate & drank beer & had himself a nice time I suspect. I am not talking to him so I wouldn't know. I had to leave my two middle children with friends because I had to head back to the house we met at because my 2 year old was making me crazy. It got to be too much. I had the youngest one so he was the slowest & the older kids didn't want to wait so they were always 2 or 3 houses ahead. Can't blame them. So one of the other moms stayed with them as well as the other moms who were in our huge group. One of my friends lagged behind with me but they kept calling her to come up with them. So basically I was by myself with Braxy a good part of the evening, sometimes we managed to stay in the group when I could coax Braxy back into his stroller. He was excited & he has never been out in the evening like that before. I think he was a little confused & kept trying to go into the people's houses. We walked a long long way mostly downhill so when I went back towards the house I realized just how out of shape I was. I thought I was going to have a heart attack & die on the side of a stupid hill. I love Georgia but we have too many freakin hills, especially in our subdivisions. I had to stop once my heart was beating so fast, the stroller loaded down with a kid sure is heavy. That struggle worked me up into a real good ticked off mood so when I got back I gave the baby to hubby & pretty much haven't spoken to him since. Except for telling him he was a jerk.
The other ladies couldn't understand why I was mad at him. They all stay at home of course so they all had the opinion that their hard working hubbies deserved a night of fun together since they all pal around & do lunch & their nails & stuff. You know all the things I never get to do but want to. That irritated me too, I'm like "hello, I work 6 days a week & have now for over a year & he gets 2 whole days off a week. He needs to be helping me.". Then they kind of "got it" a little. God, it must be nice to live such a simple & happy life. Your husband works outside the home, plenty of money in the bank, & you get to do whatever you want to. Kids are in school all day, just la ti da with the ladies all afternoon. Where did I go wrong.
Yeah, I've definitely turned into a bitter old broad. Yuck. I was beginning to make good friends with these two ladies from karate & church but after last night I can see it isn't going to work. From talking to them most of their outings are expensive or involve the men taking it easy whilst the women folk tend to the children & everything else. No thanks. I work hard too & I deserve to have fun too if we actually do get to do something. Doing everything while watching your husband kick back & relax is not fun, why would anyone think that is fun? Are you kidding me? I don't understand women. I also don't understand my husband being so selfish. I would not have done that to him. Blah blah blah, I sure I would have found a way to ruin trick or tricking for myself somehow.
I am becoming more like my father, a cynical old ass.
I keep thinking .... this can't be my life. It all started out so good. What the heck happened? People used to always say, Jenn's always got it all together. Now I'm a bitter unhappy old broad, with 60 pounds to lose. Speaking of which, it's November & I don't have one single pair of pants to wear now that I broke my only pair yesterday. I will have to dip into grocery money to buy another pair. It's getting really cold here now, especially in the a.m. I am hoping to go to Belk's & get a red dot clearance pair.
The positive side of personal finances is that my hubby has made some wonderful connections business wise & he looks to be working steady now. He has made some insurance connections & has a bunch of work lined up from people who have made insurance claims. For some reason people seem to love to burn their houses down. It's getting colder now so unfortunately people will really be burning their houses down with their heaters soon. At least hubby will get to rebuild some of those houses. I am very grateful for that. We will hopefully get to catch up on bills in the next month or two. I will be really glad for the phone to stopping ringing from people wanting money from us. It's pretty much unplugged now all the time.